Unemployment is initially strange

This is not another self pity article about redundancy, but more of an elightening one (even though I speak from Day #2)

After almost 11 years in a dead-end job, I see this as a rebirth of myself. Just under 2 years ago, the wheels of the redundancy process started to turn and with this came as no surprise to me. Since then, I have spent some time in re-evaluating and investing in myself, which leans heavily towards my ambitions and importantly, self-interests.

The last 3 months of work went by quick mainly due to the monotimous routine of the job and the commute. I have various reasons for being there so long; financial commitments, financial stability and being well versed in the role, to name a few. (I would be here all day to name them all)
I initially started work during a recession, and infact felt lucky that I had a job at all. As time went on, I can look back and see a 6 year hole in which I felt trapped primarily due to some bad investment descisions (all of which involved cars, but that’s for another day).

During the notice period, as the day became nearer, the anticipation became ever stronger, like an unearthly will that was edging me towards a cliff. The gloomy greyscale cliff isn’t hiding jagged rocks below, but is actually a platform overlooking a sea of colourful opportunity.
The more I studied the situation, the faster I wanted to run off the edge and grasp every colour that I could. This is exciting, not a downfall.

Back to reality… and time has really slowed down for me. I feel like this day has lasted a week. I am not overexaggerating. My mind is becoming less foggy, and as I try to mentally delete everything that I have learned specifically to my old job role, the colours are becoming brighter. This is exactly what I thought would happen and for this I am grateful.


All this said, there are many things that I wish to accomplish with this new-founded clarity and time. I am going to complete courses in these areas:

  • Linux
  • Word and Excel
  • CS50X web
  • Data analysis and presentation
  • AI: machine learning

As well as these, have a few interesting projects that I feel are worth persuing, and I will endeavor to complete those that are unfinished.
I also want to take the time to do things that I’ve never done before, such as going to some auctions (which is part of a future project) and maybe even a seminar or talk relating to programming.

This journey isn’t primarily about programming. It is about experiencing and learning new things, meeting different people and growing as a person. Perhaps this is the jump start I

2 Replies to “Unemployment is initially strange”

  1. Hey man, I’m sorry to hear the axe has finally fallen. I knew you were expecting this for a while and there’s never a good time for redundancy, but just before Christmas? Wow…

    On the other hand, I’m glad you now have time to do all the things you wanted to do. You seem to be keen to use the time productively, too. Perhaps a new career in app development could be on the cards?

    Hope you have a great Christmas and New Year. We should catch up, sometime 🙂

    1. Hey Dude, I’m pretty upbeat about the situation TBH and I can feel my health getting back to normal as the job really took it out of me towards the end.

      Currently I am open to job ideas but I’m going to enjoy the little journey that I’m on over the next month or so.

      We will have to arrange something soon, stay well.

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